Eyes betray the soul and bear it's thinking. Beyond words they say so many things to me. A stranger here reborn it seems Awaking wonders deep in me. If nothing's ventured nothing's gained So I must seize the day.
And fighting time so hard I pray That this moment lasts forever. And will the world stay standing still at least for me. Through my eyes stare into me. I bear my heart for all to see. With my face turned to the sun there ever standing still.
It wasn't you it wasn't me it wasn't anything. It was a day so long awaited and a chance to be as me. I let the wind run through my hands Before I learned to walk away. In distant days I long to sense it all so clear.
And fighting time so hard I pray That this moment lasts forever. And will the world stay standing still at least for me. Through my eyes stare into me. I bear my heart for all to see. With my face turned to the sun there ever standing still. And fighting time so much I ask. I will this moment last forever. Though seasons change and things come to pass Remain inside of me. And fighting time so hard I pray that this moment lasts forever. And will the world stay standing still at least for me.
I had no faith before that day in any vow or deed. Days followed days and years were meaningless. Despite the wisdom of defeat I bore my heart for all to see the wonders I'd seen. -VNV Nation
My favorite quote:
"Love is the most important thing to me. It is the only thing worth living for. The rest is just superfluous, or obstacles." -Vaughan Ludwig
"I care for myself. The more solitary, the more friendless, the more unsustained, I am, the more I will respect myself." -Charlotte Bronte, 'Jane Eyre'
"I think that happiness is when you can let yourself feel every emotion you want at any time instead of being a lying little fuck." -Tori Amos
"I believe in eating. I think women especially have this fear of eating, and I think there is a whole euphoric plane you can rise to when you have a good meal. You sit down and with every bite you honestly just say thank you." -Tori Amos
"I'm an acquired taste. I'm anchovies, and not everybody wants those hairy little things. If I was potato chips, I could go a lot more places, but I'm not." -Tori Amos
My other journals: upward_flight for tracking my progress as I battle with depression. godforsaken for my short stories and sometimes poetry.
Communities I created(some with madminx): i_love_fuck is for those of you who like to curse and are proud of it. Please do not join if you are easily offended! caustic_kisses is for those who are scathingly sarcastic and have something to say. A good place to just rant and rave a little meow_heads is for kitties and the people who love them and was inspired by Caska, a very cute kitty. Yay for kitties! shadowboxers is for those of you who have suffered because of the emotional retardation, idiocy, or cruelty of a boy. mind_cancer is for people who are suffering from depression. Sometimes it's good to talk about it with people who know how you feel. ameliorative is a place to focus on the good things in life and share your uplifting experiences or list the things that you are grateful for.
I love kitties! Yay for kitties! I want all the kitties in the world!!!
I am this kind of person: If I get an itch I scratch it. If the shoe fits I wear it. If it's cookie dough ice cream I eat it. I have been battling with severe depression for years and I think I might be winning now. I am deeply in love, worried about my future, happy, tired, and always hungry. I will take what I can get, no regrets. It's an interesting life, eh?