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Small Flowers Crack Concrete

Paradox, Humor, and Change

Name:
Girl Face Star Lilly
Birthdate:
6 February
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External Services:
  • happy_sad_girl@livejournal.com
  • wintergirlblues AIM status
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S t a n d i n g

Eyes betray the soul and bear it's thinking.
Beyond words they say so many things to me.
A stranger here reborn it seems
Awaking wonders deep in me.
If nothing's ventured nothing's gained
So I must seize the day.

And fighting time so hard I pray
That this moment lasts forever.
And will the world stay standing still at least for me.
Through my eyes stare into me.
I bear my heart for all to see.
With my face turned to the sun there ever standing still.

It wasn't you it wasn't me it wasn't anything.
It was a day so long awaited and a chance to be as me.
I let the wind run through my hands
Before I learned to walk away.
In distant days I long to sense it all so clear.

And fighting time so hard I pray
That this moment lasts forever.
And will the world stay standing still at least for me.
Through my eyes stare into me.
I bear my heart for all to see.
With my face turned to the sun there ever standing still.
And fighting time so much I ask.
I will this moment last forever.
Though seasons change and things come to pass
Remain inside of me.
And fighting time so hard I pray
that this moment lasts forever.
And will the world stay standing still at least for me.

I had no faith before that day in any vow or deed.
Days followed days and years were meaningless.
Despite the wisdom of defeat
I bore my heart for all to see the wonders I'd seen.

-VNV Nation

My favorite quote:

"Love is the most important thing to me. It is the only thing worth living for. The rest is just superfluous, or obstacles."
-Vaughan Ludwig


Other quotes:

"I care for myself. The more solitary, the more friendless, the more unsustained, I am, the more I will respect myself."
-Charlotte Bronte, 'Jane Eyre'

"I'm cool or something."
-madminx

"I think that happiness is when you can let yourself feel every emotion you want at any time instead of being a lying little fuck."
-Tori Amos

"I believe in eating. I think women especially have this fear of eating, and I think there is a whole euphoric plane you can rise to when you have a good meal. You sit down and with every bite you honestly just say thank you."
-Tori Amos

"I'm an acquired taste. I'm anchovies, and not everybody wants those hairy little things. If I was potato chips, I could go a lot more places, but I'm not."
-Tori Amos

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My other journals:
upward_flight for tracking my progress as I battle with depression.
godforsaken for my short stories and sometimes poetry.

Communities I created(some with madminx):
i_love_fuck is for those of you who like to curse and are proud of it. Please do not join if you are easily offended!
caustic_kisses is for those who are scathingly sarcastic and have something to say. A good place to just rant and rave a little
meow_heads is for kitties and the people who love them and was inspired by Caska, a very cute kitty. Yay for kitties!
shadowboxers is for those of you who have suffered because of the emotional retardation, idiocy, or cruelty of a boy.
mind_cancer is for people who are suffering from depression. Sometimes it's good to talk about it with people who know how you feel.
ameliorative is a place to focus on the good things in life and share your uplifting experiences or list the things that you are grateful for.




I love kitties! Yay for kitties! I want all the kitties in the world!!!

I am this kind of person: If I get an itch I scratch it. If the shoe fits I wear it. If it's cookie dough ice cream I eat it. I have been battling with severe depression for years and I think I might be winning now. I am deeply in love, worried about my future, happy, tired, and always hungry. I will take what I can get, no regrets. It's an interesting life, eh?

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